Hello with Loving Greetings to you, My Dear & Cherished Friends and Companions upon The Path:
To say that I’ve thought about you is an understatement. It’s like saying, ” I breath so that I can receive air.” And as the omnipresent atmosphere invisibly permeates and sustains this world with it’s irresistible life giving force, so you are for me. I have no words which can express my gratitude for your support given in various forms — the caring prayers, your healing thoughts, and your awareness sent forth to hold me. Forgive me for not being able to answer each card, phone call or message but please know they meant the world to me and lifted my spirits as they were intended to do. Oh, thank you so much! I feel so blessed that you are all in my life. I know that as my surgery was happening many of you were as present as those who were physically there – you encircled me with your love.
I have always found peace as I learn to trust the events and (yes) the vagaries of my life. Maybe you remember hearing me say once and awhile that I try to operate on a need to know basis. One aspect of that is the implied trust that in the skein of time all things become clear. So I can relax without trying to figure out too much, trusting the process. In this way I’ve come to substantial certainty that so many of the changes and lessons and teachings that occur in my life will be revealed when we come together. We make a giveaway of our hearts to one another.
Last night I dreamed I was back in the hospital and some small but necessary adjustment to the arteries replaced in my heart needed to happen. Suddenly, I realized what this was going to involve and I cried out, ” Wait a minute! Do you mean that you’re going to split my sternum open again?” My dream woke Stephanie up. It seems I was arguing with the doctors out loud ” No,” I said firmly. “Its time for me to travel now. I need to be in Circle. In ceremony with my friends” And, you know, honestly, I have anxiety about going back out on the road as I am. But I know how badly I need to be with all of you. To see you. To laugh with you. To cry with you. To pray with you. To bring blessings into the world with you. In this process of togetherness lays my transformation and my continued healing. The goodness of what we do together nurtures and heals my soul. With a thankful heart I pack my bags.